Genesis 22:2-3 KJV  And he said, take now thy son, thine only son Isaac, whom thou lovest, and get thee into the land of Moriah; and offer him there for a burnt offering upon one of the mountains which I will tell thee of.  And Abraham rose up early in the morning, and saddled his ass, and took two of his young men with him, and Isaac his son, and clave the wood for the burnt offering, and rose up, and went unto the place which God had told him.
So one day during morning devotion with my family, my dad asked me to read this scripture and the part that jumped up at me; almost like it was bolder and written in red and underlined was EARLY IN THE MORNING! Early in the morning!!!!!!! It just kept replaying in my head over and over. The Holy Spirit needed me to get it so it just kept replaying in my head the whole time during the gathering, on the ride to work, the whole day at work, the whole night… I just kept seeing and hearing EARLY IN THE MORNING.
Boyyyyyy am I far from the kingdom! What?! So here is a man who had prayed to God, cried out to Him for a son. This is a man who had endured mockery, shame, embarrassment… wait I need to remind you of whom I’m talking about. I had to go back to read the chapters before the one above. This Abraham wanted a son so bad! So so bad!!! In Genesis 15, God tells him ‘I’m your great reward’ and He replies ‘what will you give me seeing I’m childless’ Abraham is saying in my own translation, God you are blessing me left right center but who will inherit these things? What I need, what I desire right now is a son! An heir to my inheritance! What can you give me now that would match up to the desire of wanting my own child? Again, in my translation he’s like seriously God I’m grateful for all these things but really really I want a child! That’s all I’m looking for…
Abram was 99 when God changed his name to Abraham which meant ‘father of all nations’. Wait let’s take another moment to think about if this had happened during this time? ‘Waa woni ba baako mpo’ (You don’t have a single child) can you imagine the mockery! People will whisper behind his back, maybe say it to his face or even point and stare at him. Question if he’s alright up there!! He was 99 yet He chose to trust in God and at 100, He got what he had cried and prayed for…. FINALLY!!!
Aha so back to the main story, He finally got this child and God says to him take your son, the one you love and offer him as a BURNT OFFERING to me. Wait! Hold up hold up!!! I shouldn’t only take my son and give him up or sell him or something I should kill the boy and burn him!!! If it were me I would say ah!! Like don’t you want Sarah? Lot? I mean all the people around… why do you want to rob me of the only thing I’ve wanted?
I mean I tried to put myself in his shoes and to be honest the phone I’m typing this from would be so difficult to give up! If God came today and told me to give up my phone… it would be LE STRUGGLE!!! I would battle it for weeks, months maybe! Convince myself that I’m not hearing properly. This is a phone, it could get broken, stolen, just decide to stop functioning… how much more a child? Oh impossible! I would have said ” I’m sorry God but I think it’s time you rested again, this is an order from a tired Master because I refuse to believe that You are asking me to do this” but what do we see Abraham do? He ROSE UP EARLY IN THE MORNING!!! Maybe I’m the only one who finds this shocking because wait don’t you need a year to like 30 years get used to the idea, hug him and give him all the kisses and love that you can before you offer him up? I know I definitely would but Abraham, (oh boy!!) Abraham chose to trust in the Lord and rose up EARLY IN THE MORNING to sacrifice his beloved son to God.
I have been mind blown for the whole week! I need me some of that faith potion they were drinking because this is faith and trust on a different level but this is trust I want! It’s trust I need on this journey! This is trust God deserves. As I’m writing now Daniel 3:18 just keeps resounding in my head. When Shadrach, Meshach and Abednego told the king that we serve a God who is well able to rescue us ‘BUT IF NOT’ ….. wait what? They were saying we know our God is more than able to save us. I mean it’s ‘koko’ (easy/ a piece of cake) for Him but if for some reason He chooses not to come to our rescue, we still won’t worship your god. Aye! What were these people eating or drinking? I mean if this isn’t trust and faithfulness I don’t know what is.
I have clearly been doing this Christian walk wrong! Wrongly!!! The conviction I’ve had within my spirit is unexplainable! Firstly, I serve God for things and then when He gives them to me, I start to serve those things above Him who happens to be the greatest reward! I can’t even give up a cell phone without thought if He asks me to? wow! When something takes longer than it’s supposed to then I give up on Him! Abraham waited 100 years! I can’t even bear to wait a year sometimes even a month. This cannot be a father-daughter relationship; this is too unhealthy to be one! I can’t even trust wholly the God who has never disappointed me, I mean never! The one who gave me life. Shame on you Jewie! This is what you call a faithful servant! These are the people God is opening His arms to when we return home. People who served Him for Him! Not for the things but for Him! Those who were faithful to Him and His purpose for their lives even in the middle of chaos and troubles because they knew the God they served, they knew that the things they acquired from Him were not close to being as precious as their relationship with Him. I don’t know about you but I can’t say that for myself yet. I’m far from that point! The Holy Spirit just took me on a trip down memory lane of the many times I threw my hands up and gave up on Him for very foolish reasons, the many times I doubted Him, the many times I wondered if He could rescue me… how insulting!!! All I could say in my spirit was wow Jewie, you are far!!
In all this, His love endures! His grace and mercy have been made available to us on the daily! We mess up, we are ungrateful, we are so full of ourselves yet He says ‘more! I give them more of Myself’ indeed we serve an awesome God! Well guys, I’m on a journey to that place! That place of maturity in God! The place where I trust without borders, where I serve Him wholeheartedly and faithfully. It won’t be a day long journey or even a year long one but it’s a journey well worth it. In the end, God is all that matters!