Over the weekend the Holy Spirit brought a memory back to me and as I type now I can see it so clearly in my mind’s eye. I was about 9 years young and in class 5, the headmistress’s daughter walked in and I remember looking up at her. She was holding a list and I just looked away to continue what I was doing. It was the list of names of people who owed school fees and had to leave class. Definitely not my concern I thought. She began reading and as the names were mentioned, the people got up one by one and left the classroom. Then I heard so loud and clear ‘JEWIE DJIN’… wait what???? Maybe she needed me to do something for her so I looked up and I caught her eyes opened wide as well staring at the list. She looked at me and back at the list and said my name again. I was paralyzed for about a second and then I proceed to make my way out of the class and down the stairs utterly confused! This had never happened to me. I remember running into the director and she asked me what I was doing out. I said I had been sacked and there was another shocked face! She told me to go back to class and sit down because she knew it HAD to be a mistake.
My dad’s office was a walking distance from the school and I mean a distance 90kg me could make and back without losing breath. So I told the mistress I was going to find out what was happening. The whole walk to his office was confusing for me ” Like why would they mention my name? Do they know who I am? Who my father is? This never happened before so they should have known something was wrong somewhere“. When I got to my dad’s; I realized he had travelled but I knew he had left that responsibility to someone else. I met my overly dramatic uncle who asked me what I was doing there and when I told him he exclaimed ‘DO THEY KNOW WHO YOU ARE?‘ In my head I was like, ‘exactly what I asked’. He just grabs some money and goes to the school and sigh what went down over there is a story for another day.
Later in life after it happened again, my dad told me it was intentional! Imagine that! It was for me to learn not to look down on anyone. How can you look down on someone when you’ve been in that exact same position? When you’ve felt what they’ve felt and suffered the humiliation they have. I didn’t appreciate it then because I was embarrassed and it was uncomfortable but I definitely appreciate that now because I have applied it in so many other instances where I immediately put myself in whoever’s shoes to know not to belittle or look down on them. Anyway that’s not my topic today.
“How can you look down on someone when you’ve been in that exact same position? When you’ve felt what they’ve felt and suffered the humiliation they have”
What the Holy Spirit made me notice was, my reaction: ‘Do they know who I am? Do they know who my father is?‘ If you’ve ever encountered kids under the age of 10 you’d know that their thought pattern and imagination is quite different and mostly exaggerated. I have nephews that would see me and ask for all manner of things and I would wonder where they thought I was going to get the money to get it for them? But that’s the thing with kids, they don’t ever think about the why or the how? They just ask with the expectation to receive. They just ask without worrying about whether they think you are capable or not. For me that day, I didn’t even for a second think maybe he was hard up on money or unable to pay at that point. It had never happened before; he had never delayed in paying so my brain could not even forge the idea that he was going to begin now.
The Holy Spirit said to me, ‘When was the last time you asked anything or anyone do you know who my Father is? Do you know who I am?’ Then I began to understand where He was going with this. We are so quick to pull out the ‘do you know who I am?‘ card when we are being disrespected, disregarded, looked down on, treated like we are ordinary or just simply ignored. We are so quick to remind people who we are and what we have. My boldness to go to my dad’s office wasn’t based on who I was or what I thought I deserved. It was based on who I believed my father was and what He could do. The Holy Spirit then continued to ask me, ‘When was the last time you asked situations if they knew who you were? When was the last time you told them who your Father is? When was the last time you felt so confident in the resources of your Heavenly Father that instead of speaking what you see, you speak what you want to see? When was the last time you walked up to Him with the boldness, knowing He can and will provide based on the knowledge that He said He can and will step on the scene in your favor. When was the last time you made a bold move knowing you have the support of the Almighty?’
” My boldness to go to my dad’s office wasn’t based on who I was or what I thought I deserved. It was based on who I believed my father was and what He could do “
There is a song I recently ‘fell’ in love with called ‘No longer slaves’ by Bethel Music and a line in it says, ‘I’m no longer a slave of fear, I am a child of God‘. The statement ‘I am a child of God’ has been ringing in my spirit since I heard it. It carries weight, so much weight that it surprises me how I was now noticing. How is that not the card I play on a daily basis? Anytime the world presents me with limitations why don’t I hit them with the ‘I am a child of God’ card. Anytime the devil comes with his dirty lies, why don’t I remind myself of ‘Who I am in Christ’. Anytime I was faced with infirmities, why didn’t it hit me that the debt had been paid for, I am a child of God and no longer a slave in the kingdom of darkness. When we feel intimidated by the world, a person or a group of people, we are so quick to pull out temporal unnecessary titles and ‘identities’ to deem us worthy to partake of/challenge what ever it is. We are quick to mention where we work, what school we went to, what position we hold, who we’ve met, who we are related to. We are quick to flash our watches, cars, phones, bags and wallets. We are quick to let them know ‘who we are’ with these ‘dung labels’ as Paul would say (Philippians 3:8).
However, the moment we are confronted with the Prince of darkness, we forget that we are children of the Almighty God! When we encounter limitations, boundaries, barriers in life we forget that is the greatest, most valuable ‘card’ we have yet we don’t raise it up against these things that come against us. The Holy Spirit said to me ‘In the same way you were confident in your earthly father’s resource to make things right, same way you were confident in his ability to change the situation, to pay the debt and to restore you to your original position, be confident in your Heavenly Father. If this is how you trust a man who can fail, why can’t you trust a God who does not possess the ability to fail, who doesn’t have limits or boundaries, who doesn’t follow protocols or submit to the ways of this world. Who doesn’t know what impossible means. Be confident in your Heavenly Father who is beyond able to do exceedingly abundantly above all you can dream of. That’s whom you should identify with. That’s the God you should be bold to call yourself, His Child.’
Today I’m here to remind you that the devil’s power over us is based on the fact that we do not really know who we are, what we are made of and who our Father is. Your most valuable label should be CHILD OF GOD. You should wear that badge of great honor with pride! You should boast of it and be quick to pull it out when anyone or anything challenges you. You should lift it high like a banner. Just like children who do not occupy their minds to know how it’s going happen, we should also leave the ‘how’ to God. We should be confident like a child coming before their father knowing He’s God all by Himself and there is nothing that is impossible for Him. This is the God who gave Abraham a child at 100 years, saved Daniel from the lions den and the three amigos from the fire. He’s the one who made a shepherd boy King and turned slave boy; Joseph into a prime minister. He’s the one who gave up His son; Heaven’s darling up to die for you! If He could give up His Son for you, what else would He withhold from you (Romans 8:32). Therefore, come boldly before His throne knowing who you are in HIM and the things you have access to and watch Him do His thing!