Hi my name is jewie and I’m a memory hoarder. If you wrote me a note to pass you a pen in high school, best believe I still have it. If you gave me something that is non-perishable, best believe I have it. My friend gave me a bead necklace in my second year of high school. It tore I think a term after yet I kept the little beads I could gather in a ziplock bag until maybe last year. I still don’t think I’ve thrown it away but it’s not sitting on top of my jewelry case like it used to. When it comes to pictures! Hmmm right now, I believe I have over 40gb of pictures all spread out on drives and in the cloud. It breaks my heart to delete even a single photo however sometimes some things have got to go.
Im learning (on the lighter level) that as much as you love to hold on to your memories and all, sometimes some pictures will need to be erased. If you haven’t reach the point where they don’t trigger any form of emotions you can’t bear to experience, let it go. If you think you can’t delete them yet, at least shove them somewhere out of your sight. Don’t fool yourself and think I can keep this whole file of memories with this person, view it from time to time yet move on quite smoothly. Some people, I want to believe can do this. Once they are disconnected, they are disconnected good. It’s only a period they can remember and it triggers no emotions. If you are one of those, cool! If you are not, get to cleaning.
Your memory is like a photo album, you don’t put every photo you take it in. I’m yet to pick up someone’s album and have all the photos they hate inside of it. You select the ones you want to remember, the ones that stir up positive emotions. The ones that capture your good side, the ones you want the next generation to see. The ones you can retell the story for days and we can see how your face lights up. Yet somehow we like to carry an album of our pain, failures, shortcomings, hurt… we like to hold on to those memories like we don’t have the opportunity to delete them or take them out the album. For some of us, those are the photos that even begin the album. Those are the photos we introduce ourselves with. Those are the photos that continue to tell our story. Those are the photos that take up all the whole album. Listen sweethearts, your past shouldn’t define you. No matter how messy it is, it’s never too messy for God. No, don’t be ashamed of your past, just don’t choose to build your whole identity on things that have passed away
Your life’s ‘photo album’ should carry pictures of Christ. Personally, As a believer, you should go through your ‘photos’ and see God in each of them. See His goodness, See His provision, See His faithfulness. When you look at the photos, your story should tell of how God came through for you because He did. If you can’t see it, it’s your perception that’s flawed. It’s hard I know. I’m typing this and my mind is fighting it but in my heart I know it’s truth. He does work all things together for your good. No matter what you’ve been through, God works through it for your good. So let your story not tell the pain but the the Glory of God. Let people see your ‘photos’ and see testimonies. See the photos and see hope & joy.
We aren’t perfect beings but we are loved by a perfect father. I’m learning that there is no mess that God can’t clean up. I read a tweet that said even if you’ve really messed up it can’t be to the level of Saul (now Paul) lol. He was neck deep in a mess yet God found him and wiped his slate clean. Forgive your past, delete the bad memories and let’s enter this new year understanding that we are in control of the pictures we keep in our album. Until tomorrow, stay blessed