First things first, I’d like to apologize for not writing last week. I don’t even think my reason is valid enough to share. All I would say is the volume of the world and the devil was loud, so loud and so distracting that I could barely even hear myself think or be calm even to hear God. I’m leaning on grace to make sure that doesn’t happen again and making cuts where they need to be made. I don’t think I can put to words the torture the devil put me through all week for not writing and how disappointed I am in myself for not putting out a post. hmmph it is well brethren
For a while now, God has been talking to me about love. I really don’t like to write or talk about love but God said ‘ To avoid talking about love is to avoid talking about Me‘. I don’t know but I hadn’t really looked at it like that at all. The world is trying so hard to tarnish God’s name that it’s made talking about love so much look negative, make you look weak, lost, naive or something. It’s altered the definition of the word. I mean we even struggle to tell friends we love them because ‘what if they read it wrong?’ ‘What if they think you are talking about ‘love love’ and not the ‘God kind’ of love?’ It’s 5am now and I just burst out laughing at that statement I just made because I just realized how absolutely ridiculous that it. There is no love without God. So there is not a God kind of love and then ‘love love’ (romantic love). Love comes from one place; God but expressed differently.
Love for the world was what made God give up His only son and it was also the motivation for Jesus’ death on the cross. So if you ask me, love is forever the answer for the world. If you are Christian and you don’t have the salvation of the world on your heart, you need to reevaluate your whole belief. If you are ‘Christian’ and only concerned with your journey back home to heaven, then you’ve missed the whole point of this walk. God STILL LOVES THE WORLD and is interested in saving them and has tasked US;THE CHURCH to show forth His love to them to win them over. If you haven’t begun that then you really haven’t begun your walk.
Let me give you one piece of advice… something that I heard very early in life… LEARN GOD’S DEFINITIONS. Learn His ways, Don’t ever assume because you think of a thing one way, God does too. If you pick up on this quick enough you life would be better as a Christian. I heard that very early in my life but up to date I still struggle with it. I still go to God asking for things and He presents them and I’m in shock.
Years ago I prayed a prayer that I really shouldn’t have. I don’t even know what I was thinking or if I was thinking at all. I prayed that God should give me a heart like Christ’s. Beloved, if you haven’t prayed this prayer, please don’t! Hehe just kidding guys just kidding! But whoaaaa what a ride it has been since that time. He gave me one instruction, He said ‘LOVE!‘. I was young and foolish guys so I replied ‘easy!’. I mean how hard could it be to love people like Christ did. Now that I am writing this, I’m really wondering what I was smoking or on, because something was definitely not right upstairs in my head.
You know so somewhere in my head it’s love those who love you and do good to them. I mean how hard can that be. It was going well in my opinion, till God decided to turn the heat up a notch and begin the formation. God said ‘it’s the easiest thing to love people who love you and want the best for you. You will never know what it’s like to have my heart just loving people like those.‘ For the next few months when I had forgotten about the prayer I had said, My spirit and eyes were opened to hearts of people concerning me. Their intentions; their desires for me. I mean I had people I called friends who envied me (I’m still trying to figure out why because what’s there to envy ), people who hated me, who wished ill for me, who tried to sabotage good things coming my way, I met strangers who disliked me for no reason. I was put into situations that revealed ‘friends’ who do not and will not have my back. It was loud in the words they spoke, in their gestures, in their actions, in their eyes! To be honest I felt very cornered at some point, I felt like the walls were caving in. These are people I was kind to, people I had done nothing to so really it was a huge blow for me. I ran to God in tears asking Him if I was just imagining these things; that it was all in my head and that these people were actually the good people I knew them to be.
“It’s the easiest thing to love people who love you and want the best for you. You will never know what it’s like to have my heart just loving people like those.”
He said no you aren’t just imagining it and you aren’t paranoid. What you are seeing, feeling, experiencing is the truth. ” SMITE THEM THEN FATHER” was my response. I mean some wanted to hurt me so let’s hurt them first. i mean it is only right then God said ‘ Remember you wanted to have my heart? now love them because i do’. Imagine that???? Love whom? It was one of the first times I questioned if I heard right. ‘ ah But… but’ God said NO BUTs! (pun very much intended hehe). You cannot believe how hard it was and still is naturally to do that. I tried to cut them off but nope God wouldn’t have that, they would be right in my face the next moment. Grace abounds because I’m still quite on the quest to be Christ to them knowing very well the thoughts they have concerning me. I thought it was mean of God to show me that side of them, I thought it was unreasonable of Him to think I could see past that and love them. I honestly thought for some that I could never be able to even see them but it’s been years since that period and I haven’t ran out of Grace. I currently have photos with some (I’m putting the detectives to work hehe). Did they change? Maybe so, maybe not but I’m changing, my response to them is. Am I saying I’m at the end of the healing process? Absolutely not! But I’m not where I sat before.
Then I saw the image above and then begun to understand what God meant to love like Him! God says love… no conditions, no reasons, no exclusions. The world is drawing up a demonic concept of only being good to those who are good to you and loving those who are deserving or worthy of your love. I think about this and I think ‘where would I be today if God had these thoughts?’ ‘ where would I be if Christ approved of this?’ if there was a word lower than unworthy or undeserving, that’s who I am or where I am in regard to the love of God yet He still gave it. Every time I surf the web, all I see is a cry for love from the world and believe it or not a cry for love is a cry for Christ! The world is craving Christ and they don’t even know it, yet here we are, the very representatives of Him and we are doing nothing about it. I know someone is thinking ‘what can I do? I definitely can’t make any significant change’ but that’s the deception the devil is selling you to keep you from doing anything at all. The true test of your commitment to God isn’t in how much scripture you can recite or how many times you are in church, or how many posts you write but in how much of Christ you are to the world. The saving of the world is very much still God’s agenda.
For God so loved the world, that he gave his only begotten Son, that whosoever believeth in him should not perish, but have everlasting life – John 3:16
There is this thing my dad says ‘if what is important to me isn’t important to you then you aren’t important to me‘. If what’s important to God isn’t important to you then are you important to Him? Or let me even flip it, is He important to you? Don’t buy into the lie of being safe because you’ve been burnt or disappointed. That’s just life! The devil would come in like a wrecking ball and through people and circumstances try to make a mess out of your tender heart . Like me, maybe friends and blood relations would disappoint but that’s just his way of hardening your heart so that purpose would not be fulfilled and the world would never be saved. Dont worry if it makes you look foolish to love harder when you’ve been hurt, I can bet you some people think I am. Well, even i think I am foolish sometimes because I would go out of my way for someone who won’t even regard it, love people who despise me or people ‘undeserving’ of of my love (whatever that means) but Jesus did same, went to the extent of dying for us. He literally went out of His way to save us, to show us the standard,to show us what love is. So if people think we are foolish and people thought Christ was foolish too, we are in very good company hehe We need to be the change we want to see, be the change the world needs to see. God is counting on us.